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My 40th birthday is rapidly approach although it feels like I'm falling towards it rather than it approaching me. Originally this was to be a birthday list of things I would like. However, Karen has asked me what I wanted then said never mind she knew from January what she was going to get me. Great. She had stuff like this planned out while I barely know what to do for myself or others. My 30th Birthday she sent me to Maine to fish with friends. It was a surprise and the time spent there minus the piss cramps I had during the drive there was great. I already mentioned that I had no interest in a large party but I don't have much hope she will listen to what I say. Joe is supposed to be in for a dinner in Philadelphia which would be fine for me. Although with Maureen breaking her heel I'm not sure if he can or should make it. 40 is an age I have never thought about much. I thought about 20, 30 and 60 then death. Skipping over it makes no sense since I'll be seeing it sooner than 60. I don't feel 40, which makes me wonder if I know what other ages are supposed to feel like. Maybe my lack of exercise will contribute to a feeling of 40 next time I try to exert myself.